A crossroad... Happy Earthday to me! I am a day into this new personal year and I am feeling calmed yet anxious about the things that have come up. After being unemployed for the past two months...job opportunities are popping up everywhere. What was I thinking I applied for jobs in all types of places. Thing is that I never thought most would call me back and majority are out of town. I have applied for several positions before out of the state often actually and never before has anyone called me back. I ask why now? When so much is taking off for me in my home town. I am an active member of the spoken word community, my social skills have improved to the point that Im very comfortable going to a bar/lounge by myself. Recently, Ive been feeling like Im supposed to be somewhere other than where I am now. My spirit told me to move thats part of the reason I choose to apply to any and every job I located out side of the city. I have been single so long that Im not sure what a coed relationship consists of anymore. I have acquired friendships from people I in the past felt like I had nothing in common with and all of this has brought me to a spiritual point of me just being..
I have watched things happen over the past year or so...Seeing me grow and others around me grow and some stay just as they are. I think I am uncomfortable with leaving now yet I feel like if I dont leave then I will never get the full potential of who I am and who I am suppose to be in the LORD.. I just want to be a better me you know. Having that feeling inside that its okay to be you but what about being better you. I sometimes feel like I have exhausted the possibilities of being the better me in BIRMINGHAM. My soul I feel is now in full control...
Agape is taking over I am showing love to people I dont want to, caring what happens to people who have intentionally stepped on me, concerning myself with the well being of people who show me no love. Come on...I am all about love, I feel love starts at home (internally)your body, the temple you know all of that. However in order to show love to everyone else you have to be able to show it to yourself. Without self love you cant love anyone else effectively...
I now know its my time. I am able to love myself in ways that I havent before I owe that to my inner circle, past, present and a Future that my soul is preparing for me...
Whatever happens it will be the right choice for me...
Thank you GOD for blessing me in the ways that you have.
Aketnuahs
I have watched things happen over the past year or so...Seeing me grow and others around me grow and some stay just as they are. I think I am uncomfortable with leaving now yet I feel like if I dont leave then I will never get the full potential of who I am and who I am suppose to be in the LORD.. I just want to be a better me you know. Having that feeling inside that its okay to be you but what about being better you. I sometimes feel like I have exhausted the possibilities of being the better me in BIRMINGHAM. My soul I feel is now in full control...
Agape is taking over I am showing love to people I dont want to, caring what happens to people who have intentionally stepped on me, concerning myself with the well being of people who show me no love. Come on...I am all about love, I feel love starts at home (internally)your body, the temple you know all of that. However in order to show love to everyone else you have to be able to show it to yourself. Without self love you cant love anyone else effectively...
I now know its my time. I am able to love myself in ways that I havent before I owe that to my inner circle, past, present and a Future that my soul is preparing for me...
Whatever happens it will be the right choice for me...
Thank you GOD for blessing me in the ways that you have.
Aketnuahs
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