Goodbye! Wait...What Happen!?

I just left the Amani Raha Grande Finale.... they are closing after what three or two years I am not sure but I will say the they went out in style. Style, if that is the appropriate word. As I was dancing enjoying such a beautiful high I began seeing faces and recalling things about the faces that had in the past disturbed me, wanting me to disassociate myself with the very idea of being around these people. How can I say this, I am the Light of the Party. Notice I said the Light and not the Life because I do not control Life, however I do control the Light that is within me and how bright it shines. So for the very taken its 2008 and people are still clicking up in these same mentals, same disillusion personal beliefs, the same misrepresentations of the real reason you are around someone. I started this blog right after I left the party because something happen just as I was leaving that bothered me. But as I am sitting here finishing this I can't recall why I was so upset or I choose not to give the event as much energy as I gave it on Sunday morning. I will laugh right now just as I did then because people are funny and they just don't damn know. Do you remember when we were in college and you went to your first real college party, not the party with the other college id, but the party with the driver's license showing...yeah the real party and noticed that everyone was checking you out? for what reason you still don't know but you know that they were looking at you and because You had never had that much attention in your life you didn't want it to stop. So you did everything you could do to bring more attention to you no matter what, even if you made a complete fool of yourself. Well I have been out of school for years and I know that people look at me because of the bright light that walks into the room with me not because of anything else. Attention... been there done that. Positive attention.... I have because of who I am on the inside not because of what I have on. Negative attention...haven't had to worry about that because I have disassociated myself from that environment. So I realized on the way home Sunday morning that everything that had happen a few hours before was just a reminder of things that have pasted. the things that bother you the most are just things that you have been in your life or things that you are still dealing with. In this case, I have conquered that hill and I have moved to others. If you are reading this blog and don't understand I want you to stop, close your eyes and ask the creator to give you clarity in the areas you lack. If you overstand the direction in which I am walking, stay focused and remember the table is round and is on a continuous cycle. WHAT YOU DO TO SOMEONE INTENTIONAL OR UNINTENTIONAL WILL COME BACK TO YOU...