(singing) "We're all gather here in presence Lord, with our arms open wide. With lifted hands and with open hearts, we welcome you to abide. Oh lord we need your spirit, your holy spirit, right now. Lord give us your spirit, your holy spirit, right now"
See I have been waiting on this day, the day where I stop worrying about what will happen when I saw the people who abused me, hurt me, talked about me, and lied on me. You know you think about what you would do?! Well I woke up this morning thinking that I am not the same as I was yesterday nor the day before or even a month ago for that matter. They should be worried, not me! I don't worry any more, I wake up refreshed and ready for whats been prepared for me. I have been running from myself for a while now and I am just overjoyed that my walk with the Most High GOD, covers me, comforts me and pulls me into the inner most safety of his bosom. See on July 4Th, I gave up my need to control what happens to me. Because on that day I was reminded that what is going to happen will happen and there is nothing that I can do to change the outcome. I have been living in a hell of disappointment and grief since I was born and yet I am still here enduring this pain, being pulled and stretched beyond recognition of myself. Sometimes I say things then laugh because its something I wouldn't normally say. I'll begin to do things and while I am in the process, I'll ask myself "who are you?"
I have been waiting for this day, where the mistreatment of other humans affect me, just as much as the mistreatment of myself. See I'll wage a war when you mistreat someone but myself I'll just say they'll get theres. I never fought for my sanity cause I thought i didn't deserve it. I never fought for a situation because I thought if it belongs to me it will come back to me. Some things really arent worth fighting for because they dont deserve to be in your presence.(think about that for a moment) Today, I fight to protect myself and you like God protects us. I will fight to protect you and in doing that I now know I am protecting myself. We have to fight for what we believe in, we have to fight to be ourselves without the traditional thinking of what we should do, act or look like. Well if you don't like my curly hair, my tattoos, my curvy body, my humble spirit, my unique laugh, my crooked teeth, my need to make your children go crazy when I'm in there presence, my overwhelming knowledge, nor my need to let you know that although I might be in this world "I AM NOT OF IT." Then you can KICK ROCKS and yourself when you realize that you missed out on an opportunity to know a beautiful creation of GOD. I don't ever want to be a leader at the wrong things, yet if for some reason following my heart leads me down a path the "PEOPLE" think is wrong for me, know that GOD DWELLS IN ME...with his hand on the Steering Wheel and he's crazy people so you might want to move into your lane and get out of mine!
July 2009, has changed my life! See you on the other side of evening.
Oh how God Loves me....
Shaunteka LaTrese Curry
See I have been waiting on this day, the day where I stop worrying about what will happen when I saw the people who abused me, hurt me, talked about me, and lied on me. You know you think about what you would do?! Well I woke up this morning thinking that I am not the same as I was yesterday nor the day before or even a month ago for that matter. They should be worried, not me! I don't worry any more, I wake up refreshed and ready for whats been prepared for me. I have been running from myself for a while now and I am just overjoyed that my walk with the Most High GOD, covers me, comforts me and pulls me into the inner most safety of his bosom. See on July 4Th, I gave up my need to control what happens to me. Because on that day I was reminded that what is going to happen will happen and there is nothing that I can do to change the outcome. I have been living in a hell of disappointment and grief since I was born and yet I am still here enduring this pain, being pulled and stretched beyond recognition of myself. Sometimes I say things then laugh because its something I wouldn't normally say. I'll begin to do things and while I am in the process, I'll ask myself "who are you?"
I have been waiting for this day, where the mistreatment of other humans affect me, just as much as the mistreatment of myself. See I'll wage a war when you mistreat someone but myself I'll just say they'll get theres. I never fought for my sanity cause I thought i didn't deserve it. I never fought for a situation because I thought if it belongs to me it will come back to me. Some things really arent worth fighting for because they dont deserve to be in your presence.(think about that for a moment) Today, I fight to protect myself and you like God protects us. I will fight to protect you and in doing that I now know I am protecting myself. We have to fight for what we believe in, we have to fight to be ourselves without the traditional thinking of what we should do, act or look like. Well if you don't like my curly hair, my tattoos, my curvy body, my humble spirit, my unique laugh, my crooked teeth, my need to make your children go crazy when I'm in there presence, my overwhelming knowledge, nor my need to let you know that although I might be in this world "I AM NOT OF IT." Then you can KICK ROCKS and yourself when you realize that you missed out on an opportunity to know a beautiful creation of GOD. I don't ever want to be a leader at the wrong things, yet if for some reason following my heart leads me down a path the "PEOPLE" think is wrong for me, know that GOD DWELLS IN ME...with his hand on the Steering Wheel and he's crazy people so you might want to move into your lane and get out of mine!
July 2009, has changed my life! See you on the other side of evening.
Oh how God Loves me....
Shaunteka LaTrese Curry
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