Past comes knocking
Not questioning my life path nor journey, just a simple observation, Why is it that I feel so strange and odd when I talk to my old friends from the past. You know the ones that actually do, pick up the phone and call when my name is whispered into their spirit. I do this reach out when someone falls on my spirit, in some type of way, through email, facebook, phone, through whatever means that I have to contact you, I reach out!
Yet, when someone says that I fell on their mind and they call me, I feel so out of place, so far removed that it seems scripted, like pleasantries. It has happen twice to me in the past month, the most recent time I did not nor will I question that contact because that individual has been my friend since freshman year in High School and throughout the years falling in and out of touch, they've never expected me to remain the same, growth continuously is the energy I receive from them, and I honor that acceptance/ connection.
But what is concerning is when I receive calls from old "friends" who want or expect something from me. I feel so odd, that I don't even consider the pleasantries, get right to and ask, "What do you want from me" Like let's cut the bull crap you spit it out, so that I can tell you no, and move on. But, we shouldn't feel odd, when someone contacts us from our past, but we do. I have friends that I haven't spoken to in years, I still love them, always will; who have not thought of me nor my family in years. However, when the universe plants me in their presence, the first thing out of their mouth is "oh my god, I thought of you like 3 months ago." I always find my lips parting to say, "why didn't you call?" but what really comes out is "oh okay!"
I shouldn't feel weird hearing from people I love dearly, but I do.
I shouldn't wondering what the universe is up too with all the visitations from past, but I do.
I shouldn't question people I love oh but I do.
I started in hope that I would right out my clarity or write out the answer I seek, only to question, why would I feel so odd hearing from these people, I called "friend"
Yet, when someone says that I fell on their mind and they call me, I feel so out of place, so far removed that it seems scripted, like pleasantries. It has happen twice to me in the past month, the most recent time I did not nor will I question that contact because that individual has been my friend since freshman year in High School and throughout the years falling in and out of touch, they've never expected me to remain the same, growth continuously is the energy I receive from them, and I honor that acceptance/ connection.
But what is concerning is when I receive calls from old "friends" who want or expect something from me. I feel so odd, that I don't even consider the pleasantries, get right to and ask, "What do you want from me" Like let's cut the bull crap you spit it out, so that I can tell you no, and move on. But, we shouldn't feel odd, when someone contacts us from our past, but we do. I have friends that I haven't spoken to in years, I still love them, always will; who have not thought of me nor my family in years. However, when the universe plants me in their presence, the first thing out of their mouth is "oh my god, I thought of you like 3 months ago." I always find my lips parting to say, "why didn't you call?" but what really comes out is "oh okay!"
I shouldn't feel weird hearing from people I love dearly, but I do.
I shouldn't wondering what the universe is up too with all the visitations from past, but I do.
I shouldn't question people I love oh but I do.
I started in hope that I would right out my clarity or write out the answer I seek, only to question, why would I feel so odd hearing from these people, I called "friend"
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