Do you ever cry til the point you forgot why you were crying in the first place. then you end up laughing cause you realize that you have been in this same spot before and it will end? I smile thinking that If I dont then I am not thankful for where I am and even though where I am is not where I will finish its just tiring. I want to make life better for me and mine. I talked to Akil a couple days ago. He is a funny kid. Very intelligent and Im not sure all of it came from me because he's quick, very sharp. I have been watching him grow and he is all i can see. What is his future going to be if I fuck up now? How will my present affect his future? Noone really knows the answers to question like this you just have to live fully everyday and take the bad with the good and hope that it all weighs out. I am slowly making it and I have been doing it alone for years and everytime I meet someone they want me to turn into the women that want me to be instead the woman I am the woman God has guided me to be. Yes, I am confrontation, bold, and harsh when I comes to being a better person. I will fight to continue improvement within people... Society can bite the back of my leg, I dont care what you think. I am building to something I know I cant build alone. As of yesterday I realize noone really listens to any of my poetry, really, they dont, how I live and things I believe will improve humans for the better and the earth as a whole. I write about it. I am simple. I know that everything is not gonna go my way and that is cool. I want people to tell me how they feel,not what you think I want to hear. When are we as Humans going to realize that GOD dwells from the within to the out. Meaning by doing what your first minds says honor GOD. Your GOD! dont dishonor her by not being true to yourself. DAY 2....Has it happen to you? Day 1....Are you a Daniel?