Goodbye! Wait...What Happen!?

This morning up and nothing was different from yesterday except this morning I woke and I wasnt sad. I wake up everyday hoping that my situation will change. By change I mean my financial situation will give. I have been giving and giving and I now know that nothing has come back to me because all these years I have been sewing into bad ground. I call it bad ground because if I give you money...and never request to get it back; then I ask you to borrow money and you cant give it to me but you do have it just dont want to go without your new outfit to wear to the club to front for all the other people who are doing the same as you missing using your money. That bad ground. you are not growing. I have so much hurt and discouragement at this moment. I wonder will will it end. I wonder if I will end up like all the people I see that life knocks on there ass and they just never get back up. If my financial situation never changes will my life get better? Are we really happy people if we cant do what you desire to do in life? I went to a show last night and watch politics replay as I have seen it at every show that I have attended. When are we as humans going to accept the fact the we all are great...find you niche and freak it. Day 10...Has it happen to you? Day 9...Are you a Daniel?