Goodbye! Wait...What Happen!?

Okay I have hit the bottom of it all... I am tired... I have nothing but the fact that I want to make sure everyone in the world know that they were wrong about be before I leave this earth and honestly that is more than motivation... that the Phuck You factor... yes i said it...the the phuck you factor... Who knows what I am talking about? Who knows about being in a situation where nothing good s happening to you? but you look around and all types of good things are happening to everyone around you, and the shit just keeps happening. and yet you wake up everyday, with no gas in your car, no gas money, and three job interviews. with no way of getting to them. THIS IS A SICK ASS JOKE! I know you are suppose to rejoice for those you have good things to happen but fuck I mean when people are constantly getting shit to fall in there laps and nothing is coming my way... Im like DAMN....the PHUCK you factor. is in full effect... I got invited to a free party and I cant even make...cause I dont have a way there... Im laughing really so that I wont start crying because...THIS IS A SICK ASS JOKE! I am pretty sure that I write to release all the hurt and anger I have on the inside but it goes noone where... I dont have a pot to piss in nor a window to through it out, NO job, No money, but two months behind on a car payment and thr ee interviews lined up with no way to get there. Oh yeah, I found out a month ago that I dont have one friend in the world that I can talk to. that's why I always have my butt on this computer.... pouring the essence of my soul onto the black and white.... these small cry's for help that noone answers and I am pretty sure If noone every answers mine then am I suppose to answer there's. THIS IS A SICK ASS JOKE!... AND i AM THE JOKE HAS BEEN FOR THE PAST 31 YEARS OF MY LIFE. NOTHING GOOD HAS EVER HAPPEN TO ME. I HAVE A COMPLETED BOOK WITH NOONE MONEY TO PURCHASE COPIES TO SELL, THE ONE GOOD THING ABOUT EVERYDAY IS THAT i WAKE UP ONLY TO REPEAT THIS SICK ASS JOKE OVER AND OVER AGAIN. THE BEST ADVICE I TO ALWAYS DO WHAT YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DO WHAT SOMEONE WANTS YOU TOO DO. THAT WAY YOU WILL BE ABLE TO SAY i DID IT FOR ME. SIX DAYS TO MY 32ND BIRTHDAY..ANOTHER DAY WITHOUT A DOLLAR.